Self Study - I Am Home.

I am Home.

Not- 

I am in a place of dwelling or even where I live but rather-  

I am. Home.

 I get it now. I didn't before. 

Home is in me, I never leave it. 

My breath is home.
To me, breath is spirit- washing in and over me.

 I get it. I take home with me.

 I never leave it- It never leaves me.

I Am Home.

Pain is inevitable- suffering is optional. It's true. I can decide, me - aka home, decides that it's okay and to go with it or it's not okay and to change something about it.

Pain sensation, sadness, anger or what I call the bad feelings that I don't want to experience... they need to be seen and heard just like all the rest, and when they are - they soften. Rather than fighting them - I welcome them, even though it's the hardest road sometimes - I welcome them. I am present and will even sit with them for a time getting to know them, hear them and just listen. I ask what they want, what they need and what action they need me to take in life. I listen. 

Most times it's clear; slow down, rest or forgive. Sometimes I don't know and that's okay too. The action, the intention and the practice of listening, to my own body's signals and messengers, is Yoga. The action of not labeling, filtering or judging but instead welcoming with compassionate and loving-kindness and holding it for everything that presents or arises on my path - is Yoga.

Life is happening right now. I may or may not get another shot (not sure what I believe there quite yet) but I want to enjoy this one. That's my most heart-felt desire - to enjoy this Life and to be present.

I can't imagine ever enjoying pain but rather than suffering the inevitability of pain I choose to welcome it as I practice welcoming everything. If I don't like something I can change the experience somehow. This helps me be present and not hate my body for hurting or not working right. I'd rather be present and enjoy (making the best) of every flippen moment I have with breath. On my last one I want to feel as if I hadn't missed a thing, knowing I Am Home and I've been here all along. 

 a yoga practice extends beyond the mat.
return to your breath. 

^o^ 

Suz